{"id":263,"date":"2013-06-04T10:27:43","date_gmt":"2013-06-04T17:27:43","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/nancymthurston.wordpress.com\/?p=263"},"modified":"2013-06-04T10:27:43","modified_gmt":"2013-06-04T17:27:43","slug":"whale-blows-then-dives-deep","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/nancymthurston.com\/blog\/2013\/06\/04\/whale-blows-then-dives-deep\/","title":{"rendered":"Whale Blows, then Dives Deep"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>The moment my eyes open<\/p>\n<p>the old story\u2014<\/p>\n<p>inflated, puffed up and glowing\u2014<\/p>\n<p>shatters.<\/p>\n<p>I sit with a heart full of dread<\/p>\n<p>grief<\/p>\n<p>sorrow<\/p>\n<p>the ache pours out my eyes and belly.<\/p>\n<p>I want to rush ahead.<\/p>\n<p>How can I fix it?<\/p>\n<p>Make it OK again?<\/p>\n<p>Make this ache go away?<\/p>\n<p>Escape merely tightens the clinch,<\/p>\n<p>lets it all decay underground again.<\/p>\n<p>One option is all that remains\u2014<\/p>\n<p>wait, sit in the ache.<\/p>\n<p>Slowly<\/p>\n<p>morning light returns.<\/p>\n<p>The big picture emerges from the shadows.<\/p>\n<p>The moment spreads across time and space.<\/p>\n<p>A blue whale blows then dives deep down<\/p>\n<p>into the abyss of the Monterey Bay,<\/p>\n<p>making me remember<\/p>\n<p>the present moment held in the middle of eternity.<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/nancymthurston.wordpress.com\/2013\/06\/04\/whale-blows-then-dives-deep\/attachment\/265\/\" rel=\"attachment wp-att-265\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignleft size-thumbnail wp-image-265\" alt=\"\" src=\"http:\/\/nancymthurston.files.wordpress.com\/2013\/06\/whale-diving.jpg?w=150&#038;resize=150%2C104\" width=\"150\" height=\"104\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>The moment my eyes open the old story\u2014 inflated, puffed up and glowing\u2014 shatters. I sit with a heart full of dread grief sorrow the ache pours out my eyes and belly. I want to rush ahead. How can I fix it? Make it OK again? Make this ache go away? Escape merely tightens the &hellip; <\/p>\n<p class=\"link-more\"><a href=\"https:\/\/nancymthurston.com\/blog\/2013\/06\/04\/whale-blows-then-dives-deep\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\"> &#8220;Whale Blows, then Dives Deep&#8221;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"nf_dc_page":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[6,13],"tags":[129,164,199,204,259,263],"class_list":["post-263","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-earth","category-spirituality","tag-grief","tag-life-and-death","tag-paradox","tag-perspective","tag-waiting","tag-whale"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/nancymthurston.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/263","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/nancymthurston.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/nancymthurston.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/nancymthurston.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/nancymthurston.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=263"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/nancymthurston.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/263\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/nancymthurston.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=263"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/nancymthurston.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=263"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/nancymthurston.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=263"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}