{"id":184,"date":"2013-04-07T20:09:39","date_gmt":"2013-04-08T03:09:39","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/nancymthurston.wordpress.com\/?p=184"},"modified":"2013-04-07T20:09:39","modified_gmt":"2013-04-08T03:09:39","slug":"i-am-not-that-girl-anymore-except-that-i-am","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/nancymthurston.com\/blog\/2013\/04\/07\/i-am-not-that-girl-anymore-except-that-i-am\/","title":{"rendered":"I am Not That Girl Anymore, Except that I Am"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"http:\/\/nancymthurston.wordpress.com\/2013\/04\/07\/i-am-not-that-girl-anymore-except-that-i-am\/he-loves-me-photo\/\" rel=\"attachment wp-att-192\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"size-full wp-image-192 alignleft\" alt=\"He loves me photo\" src=\"http:\/\/nancymthurston.files.wordpress.com\/2013\/04\/he-loves-me-photo1.jpg?resize=357%2C265\" width=\"357\" height=\"265\" \/><\/a>She loves me, she loves me not. Or, in this case, I love me, I love me not and I love you, I love you not.<\/p>\n<p>Pulling petals off a flower in an attempt to answer such big questions may have been fine for me as a child, but once I became an adult I needed something more nuanced. I wanted to learn the fine art of seeing clearly with double vision\u2014peering inside my own skin while simultaneously stepping outside of my experience and looking around.<\/p>\n<p>Compassion was needed. Penetrating vision was required. Looking back. Looking inside. Looking around.<\/p>\n<p>I couldn\u2019t avoid the past,\u00a0 my culture\u2019s or mine, no matter how far I tried to run form it. When I stopped, I discovered that it was not only possible to own where I\u2019d been personally and where we\u2019d been as culture and then go somewhere new\u2014it was also essential.<\/p>\n<p>This exploration of seeing near and seeing far away at the same time is the subject of my second <strong><a title=\"YouTube\" href=\"http:\/\/www.nancymthurston.com\/interview.html\">YouTube<\/a><\/strong> posted on my website.\u00a0 What has been your experience with \u201cdouble vision\u201d?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>She loves me, she loves me not. Or, in this case, I love me, I love me not and I love you, I love you not. Pulling petals off a flower in an attempt to answer such big questions may have been fine for me as a child, but once I became an adult I &hellip; <\/p>\n<p class=\"link-more\"><a href=\"https:\/\/nancymthurston.com\/blog\/2013\/04\/07\/i-am-not-that-girl-anymore-except-that-i-am\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\"> &#8220;I am Not That Girl Anymore, Except that I Am&#8221;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"nf_dc_page":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[3,7,12],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-184","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-class","category-gender","category-race"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/nancymthurston.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/184","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/nancymthurston.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/nancymthurston.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/nancymthurston.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/nancymthurston.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=184"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/nancymthurston.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/184\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/nancymthurston.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=184"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/nancymthurston.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=184"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/nancymthurston.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=184"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}